Can't help myself, I keep playing with fire.
" You'll be the fool when the truth comes out, but when those lights come on and what's her face is gone we're straight back to the same routine. I tried to believe every word of your sweet story, but intuition keeps telling me you're making a fool outta me. " - N-Dubz
This time I am not going to say to much but these lyrics from Playing with Fire by N- Dubz are more enough to say what I am feeling.
As I get older I'm realizing there are more people that are going to try to tear you down and want to see you drown. By them doing this to you makes you think all the ups and downs that you face that will never be forgotten. I trusted someone who lost my trust before. I am the type of person that wants to see the good in people again, but I never give them my full trust again. For this guy lets say I believed sweet words for the serpent's tongue, and then I gave them my trust again.
At the current moment I want to let it go. I am hurting,and I am trying to smile and see the positive views of life. I am usually sunshine and showers, I usually make people laugh. All I really want to do is scream out until my voice breaks, even if my heart hates me..(I still love you)..I finally accepted it and admitted it to myself. I never told him he had my heart again to heal it or break it all apart. I guess he went with option number two,
In all honesty I kept lying to myself, I was thinking he changed. I guess he is still the same guy from three years ago because of what he did. Made me realize that he hurt me once, and again I was made the fool. It was so different once upon time, and now the spark we had just died and its time to move on. All I can say this chapter ended in my life. I cant go back but I guess I can look back..
My last quote to encourage me to move on..
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