Body Shaming
Hello Everybody.
I am going to share my story and experience of body shaming.
Body shaming is defined as shaming someone for their body size or weight. This has been a topic that has been hitting the media hard, and everyone is obsessed with it.
On July 26, 2016 a guy I liked told me he wasn't attracted to my body type. This was the first time I was ashamed of my body. I already knew I didn't have a good body type but it does hurt when someone tells you your flawless in your body. Let me tell you this man-child is really a piece of work. This blog is going to be honest because I am literally going to screenshot his text messages and Facebook messages he has sent me.
Let me start off by saying he was embarrassed to be seen with me or his family to see me. Made me felt like I was a disease just because he didn't like my body. He made me feel like I wasn't good enough to be with him and like he was better than me.
This isn't the worst part. It was the only the beginning of him shaming me on my body type.
So one day I was just curious to see what he will day. So I asked "what would you do IF I said I liked you" and replied with "I'd say keep losing weight and we'll see." This hurt so much because he made me feel he would date me and etc after I lost my weight. He led me on so perfectly like it was his career.
This guy literally went through my entire Instagram and told me I am pretty and he can't wait to see my results. I had a picture of a Korean actor from Boys over Flowers and he said " I can be your Kim Bum" As he finished going through my Instagram he messages me that "If I actually looked good. I'll friend zone these bitches for you. " This made me feel like he would want me after I lost all my weight.
He used to tell me that I was pretty that he couldn't wait to see my progress. This honestly made feel that he would've given me a chance or even date me. He always used to tell me " When you look your best don't forget about me, Remember I gave you attention when no other didn't." I want to know what made him think this was a positive thing to say. The worst thing he always sent me things that made me fell he would date and accept after I lost the weight. I can go through every message so I picked out some that really showed what kind of human being he was to me. After a couple of these weeks past he posted a photo with a girl that made realize I had it. Then I went down to his level and started treating him like shit as well. That didn't so well he cut off communication with me.
For four weeks I was blaming myself asking why doesn't he like me. This was the pretty my lowest time I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror. When I saw my reflection I just wanted to cry and I thought no one will want you, you cow. When classes started and he saw me, He unblocked from Facebook and Instagram. He sends me a message on Facebook saying good job because it looks like I'm losing weight. Then he proceeded to unfriend me on Facebook. Like a week later he sends me a message on Facebook apologizing about his behavior of acting disrespectful and etc. He said "They always come back crawling and I am crawling back to you." The thing is that he never actually apologized to me in person.
All I wanted him to to accept me but It broke my heart that he got himself a girlfriend. After he got himself a girlfriend and problems started to come up during their first month and guess who came to. He told me their relationship problems and I was listening to them like a friend. At this point I was still feeling very low about how he made me feel. After they broke up I accepted him again all I wanted for him was to say he wants me.
After time went on my feeling were still strong for him but I finally decided to move on when he decided to ask another girl out. That really did hurt and all I wanted was him. This when I decided I am not going to be his second best.
This guy has no idea how much damage he has made on my confidence and the way I see myself everyday. He is going to have live with fact that he is a bully that only tears people down and that he ruined his chance with a girl that would've given him everything. I thank this guy because I am going to the best fitness journey of my life
I know I am a fault of allowing myself for accepting his behavior but I believe when you feel down you accept any kind of acceptance. We as society need to stop body shaming. I hope you guys enjoyed my blog.
--Ginny <3
P.S feel free to ask my questions.
Follow me on Instagram, Twitter, and Snapchat: GinnyBearX
Let me start off by saying he was embarrassed to be seen with me or his family to see me. Made me felt like I was a disease just because he didn't like my body. He made me feel like I wasn't good enough to be with him and like he was better than me.
This isn't the worst part. It was the only the beginning of him shaming me on my body type.
So one day I was just curious to see what he will day. So I asked "what would you do IF I said I liked you" and replied with "I'd say keep losing weight and we'll see." This hurt so much because he made me feel he would date me and etc after I lost my weight. He led me on so perfectly like it was his career.
This guy literally went through my entire Instagram and told me I am pretty and he can't wait to see my results. I had a picture of a Korean actor from Boys over Flowers and he said " I can be your Kim Bum" As he finished going through my Instagram he messages me that "If I actually looked good. I'll friend zone these bitches for you. " This made me feel like he would want me after I lost all my weight.
He used to tell me that I was pretty that he couldn't wait to see my progress. This honestly made feel that he would've given me a chance or even date me. He always used to tell me " When you look your best don't forget about me, Remember I gave you attention when no other didn't." I want to know what made him think this was a positive thing to say. The worst thing he always sent me things that made me fell he would date and accept after I lost the weight. I can go through every message so I picked out some that really showed what kind of human being he was to me. After a couple of these weeks past he posted a photo with a girl that made realize I had it. Then I went down to his level and started treating him like shit as well. That didn't so well he cut off communication with me.
For four weeks I was blaming myself asking why doesn't he like me. This was the pretty my lowest time I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror. When I saw my reflection I just wanted to cry and I thought no one will want you, you cow. When classes started and he saw me, He unblocked from Facebook and Instagram. He sends me a message on Facebook saying good job because it looks like I'm losing weight. Then he proceeded to unfriend me on Facebook. Like a week later he sends me a message on Facebook apologizing about his behavior of acting disrespectful and etc. He said "They always come back crawling and I am crawling back to you." The thing is that he never actually apologized to me in person.
All I wanted him to to accept me but It broke my heart that he got himself a girlfriend. After he got himself a girlfriend and problems started to come up during their first month and guess who came to. He told me their relationship problems and I was listening to them like a friend. At this point I was still feeling very low about how he made me feel. After they broke up I accepted him again all I wanted for him was to say he wants me.
After time went on my feeling were still strong for him but I finally decided to move on when he decided to ask another girl out. That really did hurt and all I wanted was him. This when I decided I am not going to be his second best.
This guy has no idea how much damage he has made on my confidence and the way I see myself everyday. He is going to have live with fact that he is a bully that only tears people down and that he ruined his chance with a girl that would've given him everything. I thank this guy because I am going to the best fitness journey of my life
I know I am a fault of allowing myself for accepting his behavior but I believe when you feel down you accept any kind of acceptance. We as society need to stop body shaming. I hope you guys enjoyed my blog.
--Ginny <3
P.S feel free to ask my questions.
Follow me on Instagram, Twitter, and Snapchat: GinnyBearX
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