My Teen Years.
Hello lovely's.
It's currently 12:03 A.M, I decided to type up a little some something. I am going to write about my teenage years and advice I would give myself back then.
From all my friends I had through 5th grade through entering high school were the early bloomer's, sadly I was the late bloomer of the group. Back than I was like they have breast, and at first I was like why don't have those. I was glad I was chilled out about it because I was aware that everyone has different timing. But by them experiencing things, I learned how to not to do certain things. I was the nerdy/geeky person, I always wore my hair in a ponytail.
I remember in middle school every girl I talked to shaved their legs. I wasn't allowed to shave my legs until entering high school. The only reason is because I asked my mom when I can shave my legs. When I was allowed to start to shaving my legs was like around 2 weeks before entering high school. When I started shaving, I was like how do I shave my legs.. I never seen anyone shave their legs. Then I guessed how to shave my legs, and I guessed right.. Sadly the thing I was an early bloomer for was my period. I was 12 I believe, man I wished I was an late bloomer for this. My high school years was the most awkward moments in my life.
It's currently 12:03 A.M, I decided to type up a little some something. I am going to write about my teenage years and advice I would give myself back then.
From all my friends I had through 5th grade through entering high school were the early bloomer's, sadly I was the late bloomer of the group. Back than I was like they have breast, and at first I was like why don't have those. I was glad I was chilled out about it because I was aware that everyone has different timing. But by them experiencing things, I learned how to not to do certain things. I was the nerdy/geeky person, I always wore my hair in a ponytail.
I remember in middle school every girl I talked to shaved their legs. I wasn't allowed to shave my legs until entering high school. The only reason is because I asked my mom when I can shave my legs. When I was allowed to start to shaving my legs was like around 2 weeks before entering high school. When I started shaving, I was like how do I shave my legs.. I never seen anyone shave their legs. Then I guessed how to shave my legs, and I guessed right.. Sadly the thing I was an early bloomer for was my period. I was 12 I believe, man I wished I was an late bloomer for this. My high school years was the most awkward moments in my life.
Yes that's a photo from freshman year, I do not approve of this stage in high school, I was exploring my rocker side. I had my hair tips dyed red, and you can see by fingers that they are fading. Everytime I look at this photo I laugh so hard, because who takes pictures like this. This my myspace days -__- The reason why I was exploring my rocker because I made friends that dressed like those scene kids. I used to secretly wear eyeliner, I used to steal my sister's eyeliner and she always thought she lost it. I would tell myself to calm down with the freaking eyeliner, looks like someone punched me in my eyes. Everytime I apply eyeliner, I remind myself not to apply too much. This rocker side of me lasted until my half way through my sophomore year.
This photo of me is in my sophomore year of high school. I started to dress like a normal person, sure what is normal. At this stage i just literally stopped wearing my eyeliner, and just wore my natural face. The main reason why is because my mom still didn't allowed me to wear my make up yet. I still had very low confidence, because I never had felt beautiful. The reason why is every girl wore make up, and get a again I felt like a late bloomer with makeup. This year is when I had my first proper boyfriend, I was about 16 years old. This made realize that looks did not matter, and built my confidence not that high though. The reason why is because other girls liked my boyfriend at the time, and we all know how girls can be towards other girls.If only I knew the advice and knowledge I know now I will tell myself know not to care about what those girls said, because he was dating me... and that they were just being mean because they were jealous. I came to realize that year there is lots of people willing to stay by your side, or they just pretend to be friends and backstab you. It made me grow as a person.
My junior is the year, is when i started to feel a little comfortable in my own skin. If you can tell from the photo I brought back my eyeliner but not that much. I was finally allowed to wear make up, by that I mean like nude color of eyeshadows, little bit of mascara, and light color of lipsticks or lipgloss. This was pretty a big deal for me, I felt like I'm so cool... The older I got I was like what about the foundation, and the blush? My mother said I have nice and beautiful clear skin, and I should embrace my natural beauty. Ater that I was like whatever, me being having that attitude that parent's don't know anything. I wish I could tell myself is that natural beauty is the key, and love yourself. Your insecurities is what makes you different from everyone, and if everyone looked the same it would be boring. This year a friend and I a bit of boy issues I guess you can call it that. The issue was she fancied this boy first, and I honestly admit I started to fancy him as well but not as much. It all started is that she always wanted to hang out with him, and she always asked me to go. The good friend I am I went, and she never talked to the boy once.. I sat there like talking to him the whole time. Well she got a hurt because homeboy started texting me and getting to know me. The more I think about we just had a friendship. This story will continue in senior year which is below.
SENIOR YEAR BABY! I was complete confident, and comfortable in my own skin. Oh this year I ditched my brunette hair and decided to go blonde. Haven't you heard that blondes have more fun. This photo is my first picture I taken as a blonde.
This year I was less shy talking to people, I was really outing. I finally learned the mastering of the eyeliner. This year I tried the most beautiful thing called Liquid foundation. I literally fell in love with it. My senior year I was comfortable speaking my mind, and go after what I wanted in life. I will have to say I miss the Senior year me go get what you want attitude. Back to my story, turns out my friend had told people by that I mean other friends that I only care about my feelings. She told other people I flirted with the guy she likes even though I knew how she felt about him. She told like some old friends of mine, and one of my closes friend to this date told me they always talked about how I was a big flirt, and how I steal their crushes and people's boyfriends. When I was senior I was like who cares, they can talk about whatever they want. Now that I am older I think about how immature they were to say those things about me, and they aren't even true. I didn't steal people's boyfriends, and I was just being friendly. The past is in the past and I can't do anything about it.
I can say I had up's and down's in high school, but those up's and down's formed me the person that I am today. Each mistake I have made has made me a better person, and stronger person. I am thankful for my high school experience, and through me to grow as person. I lost some people in my life, but thankful we crossed path.
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